Goodbye Cruel World

Yesterday we learned that Chester Bennington, Linkin Park frontman died by suicide.  There are no pleasant euphemisms.  Simply put he has died.  We need to use the word to stop the stigma.  SUICIDE.  He died by suicide.

I have been reading alot and some say this is the juxtaposition of  our strongest innate human instinct to survive pitted against survival of the fittest.  Darwin’s way.  Thinning the herd.  He was weak.  He was selfish.  To which I reply fuck you!

YOU DON’T KNOW WHY!

Jay Asher tried to give us 13 reasons.

Causality is not that simple.

As humans we want to make sense of our world.  Everything has to have a reason.  To explain away or maybe as a means to distance ourselves from the possibility that …

What?

The possibility that this could happen to ME or to someone I know and love.

And I wish I knew why.  If we know specifics, we can stop it.  Right?  Unfortunately some things defy reason.  Some things just are.  Yet hope remains. With each passing more awareness is raised.

I cannot even fathom how that feels.  To be at a point of such utter despair.

I DON’T KNOW WHY!

And because of this, I won’t cast judgment or give disparaging remarks or make ugly assumptions.  Instead I will hug my loved ones a little bit tighter.  I will offer kindness, empathy and understanding as I go out and about .

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

 

26 thoughts on “Goodbye Cruel World

  1. I noticed you changed the wording. Thank you. Iove that and love you. BTW this post was very well written. Unfortunately I do have suicidal ideations often and have attempted a few times. So when I hear about a suicide, it saddens me so greatly as I know to some extent that huge horrific beyond words despair and deep sorrow and know the live or die thoughts and battle inside your mind and it is beyond words awful. It most likely wasn’t the first time they have been done that road but it was just this time they lost the fight between life and death or won depending on how you look at it. I worry many times if and when one time my fight won’t be strong enough. It is the nature of the beast of my ugly bipolar and rapid cycling. I had a trigger last night and have been hit again with it…

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    1. Definitely was going to change the words. I remembered too late from the May mental health post. I appreciate you for giving me that reminder. Word choice is extremely important. I’m sorry about last night and wish you peace as you fight your way through. ā¤ļø

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      1. Thank you J-Dub. I woke up a bit better and have jumped on my computer right away (obiviously) as it is very therapeutic for me and is a good distraction….. couldn’t get on my computer last night but peaked at my phone this morning and am typing on my life saver “computer” right now, so I am obviouasly a bit better today. Prayed a little for God to get me through so that is good my brain could do that….. Thank you for your well wishes and thoughts. I appreciate it greatly. Still fighting and praying my hypomania travels back on up from below… I will get there…. I must…..

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  2. He died from suicide. I am trying to get people to stop saying committed suicide because it sounds so harsh to me and is an outdated term. Saying someone committed suicide sounds like they committed a crime and suicide is definitely not a crime. Suicide is a sad tragic loss usually from the severe pain from mental illness. Sorry… I just am very opinionated on that subject as it is another stigma related thing to me… Our choice of words are so important. But I so agree that we need to have a dialog about suicide and keep the conversation going!!!

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      1. Thank you for being kind and not getting upset at me for being so opinionated. I have a few strong opinions when it comes to some mental illness related topics and language use. Thanks again. You are AWESOME. ā¤ā¤ā¤šŸ˜ŠšŸ˜ŠšŸ˜ŠšŸ˜ŠšŸ’Œ

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      2. It’s important and I’m glad you said something. Otherwise it’s like me walking around with spinach in my teeth and no one saying anything. I needed to hear it.

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    1. I never thought of it from that perspective and I appreciate your insight. I am fairly certain I won’t ever refer to it as “commiting suicide” again because your words make such a strong, memorable point.

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      1. Thank you for reading my blog and thank you very much your kind words. I appreciate your kindness very much. Iam happy my words impacted ypou ina positive way. Have a happy, love-filled, healthy and blessed day today and everyday. Hugs, Sue

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  3. the best way is to talk openly, just as you have done in this post .. for too many suicide is a viable option and the pain it leaves behind is horrendous! Professional counselling is highly recommended if those close are not aware … Please seek help before it gets too real?
    Much thanks for your open and honest discussion here, it’s needed.

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  4. So well said, no one has the right to criticise. Every Death is a sadness regardless of the circumstances. How many of us have been on that edge, how many of us have thought of taking our Life when everything seems so hopeless. Unless you have been there Keep Your Opinions to Yourself. Excellent Blog, reblogging you.

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  5. Suicide sucks. I’ve lost several very dear friends. Every wave of depression hits me the same way and every precursor to the tidal waves scares the living shit out of me. There’s no such thing as a “Good Goodbye.” And I feel depression about every 4 weeks, with random triggers that try to drag me under when I sometimes feel more “normal” than depressed. But I easily empathize with the feeling of hopelessness for the things of the world, and despair for the people of the world. It’s not a hopeful place. The only thing that keeps me going is my belief in something eternal. That something is Jesus. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+Thessalonians+4%3A13-18&version=KJV

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    1. What keeps you going, belief in something eternal and faith in Jesus. To me, that is hopeful. I see hope for those left behind even while I understand that hope is fickle and can change quickly to despair. I love the verse. Thank you for sharing.

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  6. People who have run out of hope kill themselves. They may not be able to view the world in the same light as others. I have often thought of depression as looking at the world thru dark blue colored glasses you can’t take off. The normal highs are mediocre so we may turn to drugs or fortune or sex to make us feel really good for a little while. It doesn’t last. The lows are bleakness and despair that one can ever get out of this pit. Everything else is numbness one takes on to dull the pain.

    I am far too well acquainted with suicide.

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    1. Me too Fred. Suicide roll call – Harry, Elizabeth, Kevin, Randy, Joanne … people I knew personally. May they rest in a peace which eluded them on this earth.

      When I think of how people ostracized Joanne’s mom it makes me angry. This was the 70s. Awareness was even less and people judged her harshly. Some other friend’s parents “blamed” the mom for her daughter’s suicide. They cut her out of their lives and me as a 15 year old took it as distancing themselves so as not to catch the dreaded disease. The nameless disease or invisible illness of mental health issues.

      You just didn’t talk about it and you certainly didn’t hang around with people like that. The scorn was glaringly harsh in our small neighborhood. I stayed close to Joanne’s sister, who was my age. My parents didn’t talk about “the incident” so as not to upset us kids but at least I was allowed to play and visit and just be kids together with her sister.

      Of course people never even said the word SUICIDE. Joanne just passed away a mere 3 days shy of her 17th birthday. Cause unknown. At least in these days more people speak up about mental health issues. I do not think Joanne’s mom would be treated the same today. At least I hope she wouldn’t. I have to believe she’d receive some empathy.

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