I Believe I’ve Been Kicked To The Curb

Guess I’ll have to play the game what else could it be?

Anxiety is no fun.

Jumping to worst case scenario is no fun.

So my appointment was going to be delayed but instead I opted to completely reschedule.

My frantic mind assumes scheduling conflicts will go in ad nauseam.

Did I use that term correctly?

What else could it be besides no body likes me everybody hates me I’m gonna eat some worms?

Ugh mo. I’ve officially lost it y’all.

As always more to come.


Out of Sorts

I hit the wall literally by taking too short a turn while exiting the parking garage.

No harm done.  It could’ve been worse as daddy would have said.  Only now I am in need of recommendations for a body repair shop.

One might say karma paid me a visit today.  But she didn’t.  Or HE didn’t.  Sometimes things just happen.  Not as payback for imagined wrongs but simply just because.

I had just learned that we lost B’s Great Aunt Glo.  She was 84 years young when she died this afternoon.  And she had been very sick for a bit.  And no one wants her to suffer.  Still was sad.  A few of the siblings got to see her one last time.  B says probably no services.  He is not sure.

I had all these emotions swirling in my brain when I got home.  Thinking of his grandma’s clan.  Our clan.  Glo was her little sister.  The family was/is very close.  We are not estranged but things have changed as we’ve grown up and apart.  We hear things through the grapevine versus experience.

No more reunions.  Though I found myself thinking about the last one, trying to remember our shirt color and how much we enjoyed that day.  Grandma was still alive and so was Danny, Danny, and Barb.  The girls were little.  Damn I need to find that family picture.  I am frantic that I cannot put my hands on it!

I went to feed by grand pups and stayed with them longer than usual.  B was outside too, watering his garden and the trees.  We both just sort of stood there.  Talking without saying a single word.

I didn’t want supper but he said we had to eat, so he made Ravioli and we ate.  We did all the usual things to prep for tomorrow too.  After doing the dishes, we packed our lunches.  Got the coffee pot ready.  Set the alarms.

In an effort to calm down.  I put my phone all the way away and I read.  Nothing good can come from being connected 24/7.  The bomb exploding at Fed Ex in Schertz TX and the Maryland high school shooting had already been communicated worldwide.  Enough.  Too much.  And that’s the tip of the iceberg.  We are shocked but not … maybe numb is a better description. Reading was a way to escape from the thoughts in my head.  Replaced by fresh thoughts and a heart that is full.

In any case, that is all for now.  I am better but still out of sorts. I hope that you find this relatable and if you’re out of sorts too, put that aside and hug your loved ones.  They say a 20 second hug is all it takes to lift your mood.  Try it, you’ll be glad you did.

As always, more to come.

Sunday Rambling

It’s a banner day in the Dub household, sprucing up the place.

Smoke up Jilly!

What the hell does that even mean? <cough> Breakfast Club – Judd/John Bender you bad boy you!

J-Dub, your mind … you need to have a word with it.

Folks, I am not smoking anything.  I am high on life.  I finally have a site with widgets on the right slider bar.  Can it get any better than this?  I mean c’mon, can it?

A BIG resounding and rhetorical NO!

But you said no, that’s not rhetorical anymore.

And … it could … get better … but in this moment … aaahhhh

I added images y’all for my favorite prompts/challenges AND I linked them.  Click the pics peeps and you’ll be carried away.  And that is not a euphemism for anything. No double entendre.  Wiki Wiki What you say??

And that’s all.  I am through amusing myself.  I just wanted to share.  Fun can be FREE!  The little things, look back and they become the big things. That’s 1/2 right … I think.

Sentimental sappy crappy.  Huh?

You said you were done kiddo.  Quit already.

As always, more to come.

Thanks for the warning they say.

Now I’m done 🙂




Another Time Sucking Day

Oh yeah.

I have heard it before.

The older one gets, the faster time flies.

Well I ain’t old I tell ya.

That’s my story and I am sticking to it.

I was busy playing with my theme.

Mind outta the gutter folks.

Trying to be creative see.

With this here site o’mine (channelling St PaDDy on the day after since I am 17% Irish per Ancestry DNA).

Of course I am changing everything for free (except for my time which is worth more than gold and I know better than to be wasting it)

Which automatically limits my ability.

To be creative that is.

Go figure why everything is so expensive.

But I am NOT complaining.

I am musing and rambling.

The longest time suck was the header picture.  I had my own photo of my Brighton Writing from the Heart bag and fru-fru expensive ass pen since  I wanted something of my own.

For three shakes of a lamb’s tail, I had a stock option ocean header.  But BOO to stock options unless then bring me $$$$ aka serious coin.  I was bugged (neurotic me) by the non matchy-matchy colors.  So in a streak of Wile E. Coyote Genius, I hacked off the top of my Central Park Alice in Wonderland Statute picture to where all that is showing are the trees.  Temporarily Barren.  Beauty.

Still not done, might continue to spruce to my neurotic hearts desire.  A way to deflect the pain away from thoughts of what if and could’ve, should’ve, would’ve.  Or my new favorite that had no name until recently. Worst.Case.Scenario.

As always, more to come.

I tried to spruce up the place

Yesterday I was looking around for a new free theme cuz you know this cheapo is not going to pay for premium.  I wanted a place so post badges.  I tried out some things with an online demo but when it came time to pull the plug, I chickened out.  I already know from last time that one does not lose anything permanently but finding all my stuff in new hidey holes is different. Hmmm.  Decisions, decisions.

I’m Not Worthy But I Was Nominated Anyway

Thank you Jim.  I am very Wayne and Garth not worthy for the Liebster.  I appreciate the nom as in nomination.  Look at me all shorthand and everything.  The kid left me again.  Before she did she was trying to make sure I had plans.  She worries about me 😦  I didn’t have plans but she doesn’t need to know that.  Until this … answering your questions are my plans.

Jims asks

  1. What do you do when you are not blogging? Read, watch TV, movies or listen to music.  I am the real spud aka couch potato.
  2. Do you spend more time per day writing your blog or reading other blogs? I try to go about 50/50.  Writing takes me longer unless I wing it and if you’ve even read one or two of my posts, you know I mostly wing it.
  3. What is your favorite writing challenge to participate in? #SoCs of course … you know where I can wing it and all 🙂
  4. Have you ever won any other blogging awards? I have – Blue Sky.  There are a few more but I was so excited I did not categorize my responses.  Versatile and Mystery Blogger I think??? They are in the haystack of the 1337 posts I have made in the last year and 3/4.  My biggest claim to blog award fame is the badge contest for #SoCS.  Which makes me feel guilty.  Don’t ask me why … ok ask me why?  I am simply wired that way.  Still I am super psyched to showcase the San Antonio Riverwalk each and every Saturday.
  5. Do you think that your blogging has improved since your first blog? Hmmm.  Yes and no.  Yes I think practice lead to improvement in my later/current posts but I admit to short cuts and will at times chunk it out there just to get the darn thoughts out of my head.
  6. What advice would you give someone who is thinking about starting a blog? Don’t think about, like Nike, Just Do It!  People are nice in Bloglandia.  Don’t let them calling it Worst Press fool you.
  7. Do you have any pets? I sure do.  My grand pups – Buddy and Spot – red heeler and labrador mix litter mates.  Say that 3 times fast :).
  8. If you met a genie that gave you 3 wishes, what would they be? I am the most indecisive person on this planet.  I guess I’d give all my wishes away.
  9. What are you most afraid of? The cruel world hurting my kids.
  10. Do you have a bucket list, and if so name one thing that is on it? I don’t but maybe I should start one.  If I do, I guarantee it will not be sky diving.
  11. Is there something that keeps you going on a bad day? Listening to music, I am convinced songs have healing properties though I read an article recently saying reading has even more power to restore the good than music or other art forms.

Now I am supposed to nominate five fellow bloggers.  The last time I did that, there were crickets.  I have no idea who will play along and who will say no way.  Plus I remember being last picked for teams.  No bueno.  I will open this wide open and say anyone who would like to join in, then answer these 11 questions.

  1. Coke or Pepsi?
  2. Sweet or Salty?
  3. Dog or Cat?
  4. YouTube or Netflix?
  5. Phone call or Text?
  6. Car or truck?
  7. Rich Friend or Loyal Friend?
  8. Bath or Shower?
  9. Most important in a partner: Intelligent or Funny?
  10. Amusement Park or Day at the Beach?
  11. Big Party or Small Gathering?

#SoCS for 3/10/18 ~ So Far

For Richmond Road – WRiTE Club link within.

J-Dubs Grin and Bear It

Gooood moorrrrning blogosphere! Time once again for # SoCS.  The lovely Linda has given us our prompt:

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “so far.” Use it any way you’d like. Enjoy!

C’mon J-Dub, think, think, think

So far …

So far what?

So far, so good!

For the love of God and all things living is that all you’ve got?

Your mind is racing lady, you’ve got stuff.  Lots of things are going on all at once as so happens in this big beautiful world while living this thing called LIFE.

So far, so good on the posts for the A-Z Challenge.  And because of that challenge, you were tipped off to another one called Write Club.  Novel idea!  Get it?  Of course you “get it”.  What’s not to get? lol.  All but one of the Write Club winners published.  Sweet success ratio.

This challenge…

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Time Is Doing That Crap Again

And by crap, I mean messing with my mind.

One more quick post before I move from this spot.

I am burning daylight ala the Duke.

Or Wayne as in John that is.

I will have more than enough time for stuff like this tomorrow.

And the next day.

And the day after that.

I got up at 8 am to make pancakes as our final breakfast of Spring Break 2018.

This afternoon Lulu will be back home.

Yep I said it and I meant it.

Her home is elsewhere.

And I am not sad about that because …

Independence is what we all want right?

Say right.

Temporary as her first home away from her original home may be …

There is never a truer statement in you can’t go home again.

All has changed.

All is as it should be.

Out damn spot.

Now where was this flow when I was trying to write something off the cuff about GREEN.

As always, more to come.