Ok, I Have to Stop Watching Now

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HBO free preview is causing me anxiety! ¬†The series VICE, while a million times better than the series Animal is triggering me. ¬†Expose style reporting on a wide variety of current affairs. ¬†Check this out –¬†VICE official homepage. ¬†Currently watching Crude Awakening about the BP and the 2010 oil spill. ¬†Cover-up … think Erin Brockovich. ¬†And this on Earth Day, how fitting!

If you are not already depressed, watch this show and you will be. ¬†And for all the naysayers out there, I know. ¬†Liberal media spins. ¬†Hell we all spin. ¬†Just depends on which version YOU¬†choose to believe. ¬†I’ll think I will take a nap now.

As always, more to come.

HBO Free Preview Continued -Wrapped Insomnia, Up Next is Next Friday

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This week I learned about 4:20 for the first time. ¬†Yep, I climbed right out from under my rock. ¬†Despite people thinking the contrary, I’m an innocent, shy, introverted, rule follower. ¬†Wolf in sheep’s clothing? ¬†Queen, Drama much?

I just wrapped Insomnia, not as good as I remembered it. ¬†Though that whole idea of 1/2 the year daylight sH!t is for the birds. ¬†Visit Alaska yes, live there never. ¬†“Two types of people live in Alaska. ¬†Those who were born here and those who came here to escape¬†something else. ¬†I wasn’t born here” ¬†Love Maura Tierney – hotel owner¬†with heart of gold or ER nurse (or maybe doctor … or nurse turned doctor?). ¬†In Insomnia, she’s a hotel owner. ¬†Maybe I should move to Alaska?

How did I get here again???? ¬†Belated rabbit hole alert. ¬†Screech … turning the car around. ¬†Continuing the theme of¬†4:20, Next Friday here I go. ¬†So far I am laughing at the totally inappropriateness of this movie. Don’t judge me, I’m letting off steam with my new-found free time aka¬†Losing Time.

As always, more to come.

HBO Free Preview Weekend

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Finally watching Joy. A movie with the hunger games chick,  Bobby de Niro and Bradley Cooper.  I mean come on. Is this a recycled Silverlining’s playbook or what? I know I know different storyline but still.  And supposedly based on a true story. Those I really like.   And the more struggle, the better.  The theme should be: Life is messy, clean it up.  

As always, more to come. 

Another Two Sing Along Songs for April 21, 2017

Sing Along Song Of The Day ūüé§

Anyone remember Fashion Police and who wore it best? ¬†Hosted by Miss Joan Rivers! ¬†Helluva woman. ¬†Well in this installment of sing along song of the day, we’ll do a who sung it best? ¬†Or it is who sang it best? Dang Grammar Police. ¬†Now I have to google this sH!t. Here is the answer. ¬† Now I have to ask, what the hell is an auxiliary verb?? ¬†HAS is for one. ¬†And what the hell is a participle? ¬†Why do participles¬†have to be past, present and perfect? ¬†No one is PERFECT! ¬†Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!! Compulsion is a wonderful thing. ¬†Twitch, twitch, twitch. ¬†How did this post become a grammar lesson? ¬†No idea. ¬†Anyway, back to it. ¬†Who sang or who has sung the song¬†best? The original or the cover band? ¬† You be the judge.

Am I Evil? Diamond Head or Am I Evil? Metallica

As much as I love Metallica, I have to give it up for the ORIGINAL Diamond Head. ¬†Roar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ¬†Am I Evil? Yes I am. ¬†Am I Evil? I am man, yes I am!¬†Now in deep thoughts with Stuart Smalley. ¬†Is man evil? ¬†I’d say falliable yes. ¬†A sinner yes. ¬†But man can be forgiven. ¬†Maybe in some individual cases, man or woMAN is evil. ¬†Not as in whole of huMANkind. ¬†That I refuse to believe.

If this was #SOCS prompt¬†MAN, I’d be golden but man was weeks ago. ¬†HEY it’s Friday! ¬†Duh? ¬†We know Jill, comes after Thursday. ¬†I need to find the prompt for tomorrow. ¬†I’m looking for you Linda G Hill.

As always, more to come.

ūüé∂ For April 21st 2017 ūüé∂

Sing Along Song Of The Day ūüé§

Sublime marathon.  Well maybe not since two songs hardly make a marathon.  More like a musical sprint. 

Santeria and What I Got

Let’s all pop a cap in Sancho shall we?  Just kidding.  I don’t even know the guy.  I wonder if he’s a bastard in the same way Hope is fickle and Life, she’s a bitch.  

The lyrics are deep despite the beat.  These are singalong for sure but if you really listen you might be like me and think … did I really just sing pop a cap in sancho? Well yes yes I did!  And it was on auto pilot. I memorized these words a very long time ago.  

The second song What I Got sort of played out before me.   I passed a bus stop while running errands.  A single rider was sitting on the bench.  Eyes shut tight, face raised to the sunshine.  Rocking back and forth with a grimace on her face.  

Pain. Everywhere one looks. But there was beauty too. In the sunshine.  And I can’t possibly know her story in a two second glimpse.  Still hits me. Makes me think. 

And with that, I am done. And all of you are probably thinking “J-Dub next time just post the songs; we don’t need your spin”. Ha! Have you learned nothing about me in our time together?  LOL.

As always more to come. 

Sitcom Funny ūüėā¬†

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Things overheard on American Housewife tonight:

  1. Kids should come with a warning, don’t have kids
  2. What’s wrong with you Greg? Why can’t you let A.O. play a little grab ass
  3. Dad talk to your wife, she made my friend eat out of the garbage

When Greg sees Taylor and A.O. holding hands and breaks in between them grabbing their hands and singing “red rover, red rover” I almost snorted tea out my nose.  Daddys and their little girls, priceless. 

As always more to come. 

The Moral of the Story

J-Dub's Confessions, Music To My Ears, Sing Along Song Of The Day ūüé§

I heard it from a friend who heard it from a friend who… ¬†And no this is not a REO Speedwagon sing along song of the day. No one’s been messing around.¬† Wait! ¬†Go back! Click the link and listen. ¬†See what I did there? ¬†Enjoy the song styling of Pit Bull and Mr. Iglesias. ¬†Hehe! Now move forward to this stream of consciousness composition.

I do not think I am breaking any copyright laws in my attempt to paraphrase a story told to me recently. ¬†And before I proceed, I better know I am not breaking the law. ¬†Ignorance is bliss but Ignorantia juris non excusat or ignorantia legis neminem excusat. ¬†Learn your Latin peeps. ¬†I wouldn’t get off scot-free. ¬†Anyways,¬†I Googled the crap out of the tale and came up with zilch. ¬†Breaking the law. ¬†Squirrel. ¬†JUDAS PRIEST!!!!!!! ¬†one of my faves. ¬†Especially the following lyrics:

So much for the golden future I can’t even start
I’ve had every promise broken, there’s anger in my heart
You don’t know what it’s like, you don’t have a clue
If you did you’d find yourselves doing the same thing too

Now wait just a minute J-Dub. ¬†How did¬†we get here?!? ¬†Well, just so happens the lyrics fit the mood and the moral of the story. ¬†In the round about way that I connect dots. ¬†You may not see clearly right away … until the rain has gone. ¬†That’s me, channeling my inner trulyunplugged.

In general, mental health issues are misunderstood.  Physical disease we understand but mental disease not so much.  Hell, I even spent time today watching bloggers go at it over the topic.

One said, “Mental illness is like diabetes!”

While the other said “Hell no it is not!” ¬†

One said “Well fuck yourself! You’re an idiot. ¬†Depression, anxiety, etc… are illnesses. ¬†Invisible illnesses” ¬†

While the other said “Well fuck you too! And grow a pair. ¬†Man up buttercup and try to live life stone cold sober”

Ping Pong, Ping Pong. And who the hell wants to do that?!? ¬†Sobriety is overrated. ¬†Lots of alcoholics out there might tell you otherwise. ¬†Oops, there I go again starting stuff. ¬†I would never joke about such a disease as serious as alcoholism. ¬†I’m being sarcastic and snarky in case you missed that!!!! And speaking for Snark. ¬†Check out this cool site.¬† Go ahead! ¬†Look. ¬†I’ll wait.

Ready to go again?

I definitely have¬†unwavering opinions about all this though – each person’s circumstance¬†varies! ¬†Ha! So much for definitely … so much for unwavering. ¬†One fucking size, never fucking fits ALL!!!!!!! Hence the you don’t know what it’s like, you don’t have a clue. ¬†

Most people are clueless with regards to mental health issues. ¬†Only 1 in 5 get it so only 1 in 5 understand. ¬†Well if you are lucky maybe 2 in 5 … you know that close friend who doesn’t¬†judge and loves you unconditionally. ¬†That family member who you can count on. ¬†Your therapist who gets to hear you ramble on and on about your first world problems never once saying “Jill, just get over yourself”. ¬†She doesn’t have to since I say that to myself enough for both of us.

Thank ya Jesus for letting the masses be clueless! ¬†I would not wish this sH!t on my worst enemy. ¬†Now wait another minute J-Dub’s, how did we get here? ¬†All you wanted to do was share a nice story that impacted you deeply and maybe make some people cry (happy tears). ¬†You know, write something with¬†human connection.

Here goes nothing. ¬†Moving story, make people cry ….

When I woke up last night and could not go back to sleep, this story was ALL that I could think about. ¬†Well that and other stuff that kept me up for who the hell knows how long because in true compulsive learned behavior, I refused to look at the clock. ¬†Alarm clock avoidance is an old how to deal with¬†insomnia trick. ¬†And this particular trick works for me. ¬†I probably am running on 3 hours sleep but I won’t know that … so there! ¬†Take that you bastard insomnia!

Here goes nothing take two:

A man was in a boat with a group of boy scouts.  They were having a wonderful time out on the ocean fishing.  They were in deep waters yet they could still see the shoreline.  They had a good catch and were about ready to call it a day when the clouds got dark, the wind kicked up, and the storm rolled in.  Their small vessel capsized.  Everybody was thrown into the waves.  The man had two choices, he could try to save the boys or he could swim to shore.  He knew in an instant that they would all perish and as painful as it was, he started to swim to shore.  As his feet hit the bottom and he was able to stand, he looked back expecting the worst.  To his dismay, the boys were following him; swimming after him to the shore.

I cried when I first heard the story (and I am bawling like a baby again right now) because A) the friend who told me this lesson is priceless.  She is someone who I can cry with and not be embarrassed about doing so afterwards; B) ALL of the boy scouts and the scout master survived; and C) The day before I heard my therapist reaffirm for me that I needed to take care of myself before I could help my baby girl.  She used the analogy Рjust like the preflight safety message: If you are travelling with a child or someone who requires assistance, secure your mask on first, and then assist the other person.

And the moral to the story is … you tell me. ¬†I would love to hear some comments. ¬†Your feedback is the reason I blog. ¬†Well that and the part about me becoming famous one day … in my own mind¬†that is :).

As always, more to come.

P.S.  <lost> Hence the post Ugh!  and it was good.  I think.  I highlighted two music links and three bloggers.  Maybe I can add more later.