Goodbye Cruel World

Yesterday we learned that Chester Bennington, Linkin Park frontman died by suicide.  There are no pleasant euphemisms.  Simply put he has died.  We need to use the word to stop the stigma.  SUICIDE.  He died by suicide.

I have been reading alot and some say this is the juxtaposition of  our strongest innate human instinct to survive pitted against survival of the fittest.  Darwin’s way.  Thinning the herd.  He was weak.  He was selfish.  To which I reply fuck you!


Jay Asher tried to give us 13 reasons.

Causality is not that simple.

As humans we want to make sense of our world.  Everything has to have a reason.  To explain away or maybe as a means to distance ourselves from the possibility that …


The possibility that this could happen to ME or to someone I know and love.

And I wish I knew why.  If we know specifics, we can stop it.  Right?  Unfortunately some things defy reason.  Some things just are.  Yet hope remains. With each passing more awareness is raised.

I cannot even fathom how that feels.  To be at a point of such utter despair.


And because of this, I won’t cast judgment or give disparaging remarks or make ugly assumptions.  Instead I will hug my loved ones a little bit tighter.  I will offer kindness, empathy and understanding as I go out and about .


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255


J-Dubs Review of Luckiest Girl Alive by Jessica Knoll

Contemporary fiction.  Ripped from the headlines.  Drugs, expulsion, new kid, Bullying, cool kids, yearning to fit in, sexual assault, school bombing/shooting, depression, eating disorder, relationships: peer, student/teacher, parent/child, romantic.  

The protagonist was not likable despite the horror that happened to her. I really wanted to like this book and take away some life lessons but the end fell short. Really the whole thing fell short. Trying to cram too many topics into one story versus getting one topic done right.  

I rate this 2.5 out of 5 stars ✨.