Prompt by: Fandango and it is a juicy one. Checkout his blog. You’ll be glad you did.
Post by J-Dub
Decisions, decisions. Aggravate has a multitude of applications and while in my opinion aggravate does not fall into the same category as yesterday’s humiliate, it is still more on the negative side of things.
Aggravate … to annoy or make worse
Drinking coffee aggravates his acid reflux
Big brother aggravates little sister with his teasing
Jill becomes angry when she can’t have her own way.
See below … that was written at the end of my Kindergarten progress report in 1970.
Before I was diagnosed with depression in my mid 30s, I knew I was angry, irritable and easily aggravated. Not all the time but often. A perfectionist, extremely competitive but always against myself. Me, myself and I (to borrow from Truly Unplugged) having internal conversations to one up and push each other. Wondering will I ever measure up? I have standards so high that no one can reach them, least of all me.
III. Emotional behavior on my progress report shows an even split 2-2 excessive anger and self-assertion juxtaposed against justifiable affection and joy/happiness. I’m an oxymoron. But then again, I think we are all flexible human beings.
And that was kindergartener Jill. Surely I am no longer that irritable child. Or is that the core of my personality? To be easily aggravated when I do not get my own way.
No, I am better than I once was … I have proof. My family will attest to the strides I have made. I cannot remember that last time I screamed like a banshee over some slight. When the kids were younger, that was a daily occurrence. How many times do I have to tell you to (fill in the blank)? And I didn’t politely ask, I barked orders. You’ll do what I say, when I say, and how I say!
Seriously disgusted with the old me.
The core part is being a perfectionist. The improvement is realizing what is important and knowing made beds do not matter … despite recent book that say doing so will help you win the day. Sorry Admiral.
It is ok, just to be ok and it is ok that I will forever be a work in progress.
Who knew #JusJoJan would be like free therapy. Day 12 and I have not missed a day yet. Yep, that’s me competing against me! Rules and Ping Back so you can compete too.
As always, more to come.