All good things must come to an end … to make way for more good things. Ha! What kind of nonsense is that?
How about some more?
The truth hurts BUT the truth sets you free!
Malarkey!
My head is about to explode. I am capital M.S.U = Making Stuff Up!!!! And when I do this, every once in a while, part of my nonsense comes true. Mostly not but dang, enough to keep me in this purgatory.
I think my last rant was read which is why I’m getting the silent treatment but I also think “they” wouldn’t waste their time to find my blog & read said rant. Locating me here would take a lot of work for someone who is nothing to them. And that my friends is the soul crushing part. I am nothing …. to them!
The opposite of love isn’t hate, it is indifference. For you to hate someone, you have to have some feelings for them, dare I say love them first. And as actions speak louder than words, I’m shown a genuine lack of care.
I’m frustrated that 3 different people, newly found “family” do not deem me worthy of words. One was a random check in where I included my freaking kindergarten picture, another was a happy birthday wish, and the last was a text of ducks out & about in nature. To be fair, the duck video was texted by accident & it is annoying as hell. Oops. And sure, I am not owed anything by anyone but seriously. I will never understand how anyone can be so cruel to not simply respond to a kind intended message. I never expected this from my “family”. It cuts so deep. I deserve better.
And that better could even be for them to tell me the same thing I shouted out last week. Fuck you mother fuckers! Funny not funny. But ya, I wish they’d tell me off so I could move on with my life. Which is what I will do once I get my head around it being ok to lose what I never had to begin with but wanted oh so very much.
As always, more to come.
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