Sunday Reflections: A Week in Review ~ 1/1/23

This might be a long ramble. Not only a week in review but the year’s highlights. Last night at midnight we had a barrage of fireworks that felt like they went on forever. The loudest in the almost 23 years we’ve lived here. I’m not sure if the events were truly celebratory. It was almost as if there was an irritated undertone.

After these last three years people have something to say. Or I’m making stuff up again. I do that a lot doncha know. Self preservation technique in the absence of evidence my mind fills in blanks. The problem with that is I lean towards negative since I’m worst case scenario girl.

Last week was nice at least. I was off Monday & breezed through an easy work week getting out early Friday. I had time to get my work organized & primed for success in 2023. I returned my 4 library books & got one more that is saving my life. I’ve needed the escape. I’m turning to my self help techniques more often. Reading, music, & laughter key among them.

I have cried more in 2021 than my first 57 years combined. My health issues continue. I’m destined to be in chronic pain. But my angst is more emotional. The constant physical creates a mental state that is fragile to say the least. Not like I can wish myself well but I can think myself worse if that makes sense. This twisted feeling in my gut is worse when I’m not zen. The pain floats from back to front eluding firm diagnosis. Is this all really nerve pain that radiates? I’ve had all the tests, most more than once. I’m at the it is what it is stage telling B to make sure my autopsy unveils what’s been missed.

Alright enough feeling sorry for myself. I’ve far more blessings. Not to minimize my fee;ins because that is toxic positivity or so I learned this year. There is someone who said it better but basically this is not a contest for last place in the world of hurt department. Our feelings are valid, we are valid.

Now for the roll call …

Peace y’all. Until next time. Stay safe.

As always, more to come.

7 thoughts on “Sunday Reflections: A Week in Review ~ 1/1/23

    1. I agree, that would be a wonderful way to spend the money instead of the barrage of noise which helps no one. Thanks for the well wishes. Everyday I’m shuffling 😉

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