I just realized I didn’t reflect last Sunday. Or better said I didn’t write about what I reflected upon. Because you know me, I’m a whirling dervish of reflections. What a juxtaposition! A whirling dervish is wild & chaotic while reflections are smooth & serene. I’m going through some stuff y’all. I’m feeling guilty for being upset because others have it worse off than privileged little Jilly. Though my stuff is still painful to me. Oy vey!
For the first time in my almost 58 years, we’re having Thanksgiving dinner on a Sunday! This Sunday. As in today. The meal is anything but celebratory though we are grateful for each other & will enjoy spending precious time together. And this ole gal can be put out to pasture since Lulu is the chef using all my recipes. I’m only witness, answering the occasional question. The torch has been passed. Good thing too because my body is not cooperating with me.
The last thing I wrote in my journal was this … Right now I feel like the end is imminent. Ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch <then I doodled faces in pain> before writing I’m in pain! ❤ And I’m not medicated because I am medication adverse as my prior doctor once wrote about me.
What is a big fat lie. I’ve taken cholesterol medication since 2003 because of a definite diagnosis that did not respond to exercise or changes in my diet. In 2003, I weighed 120 lbs on my 5’3 1/2″ frame. I was still running 5 x’s a week & eating clean. Still cholesterol nearly 300. Crestor for the save! What most of these medical professionals don’t get about me is that I want to know why before accepting their treatment plan instead of masking my pain with heavy duty meds. Is that too much to ask? I think not!
Okay, enough pity party, whine with some cheese. Onto the roll call or onward through the fog, you be the judge. Drum roll puhleese!
- 11/19/22 – #SoCS
- 11/18/22 – Friday Frolic & the Unexpected Driver
- 11/17/22 – Thursday Thoughts
- 11/16/22 – #1linerWeds.
- 11/15/22 – Share Your World
- 11/14/22 – haiku
- 11/13/22 – #SLS
Peace y’all. Until next time. Stay safe.
As always, more to come.