for years I wondered
the prize just beyond my reach
was it worth the wait?
Okay, I’m not crying you’re crying. I’m sure many things are worth the wait but when one has an idealized notion of things, as I surely did, disappointment is inevitable as you learn the truth. Or the truth as you see it. Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, no wonder I was kicked to the curb.
I’ve always had a flare for the dramatic which means I could be making stuff up. I was so sure that knowing would make all my cares go away. I’d get a benefit long overdue. Instead I have more turmoil (self induced) & heart ache coming from unreciprocated love. My heart is bursting at the seams.