Thursday Thoughts ๐Ÿ’ญ ~ 7/21/22

What a difference a day makes! Yesterday I cried ๐Ÿ˜ญ myself to sleep ๐Ÿ˜ด. This morning I have a new lease of life. Might be that the tears wore me out so that I slept ๐Ÿ›Œ through the night. From 9 pm to 7 am. Whoa ๐Ÿ˜ณ I canโ€™t remember that last time that happened.

My tears ๐Ÿ˜ญ sprung forth from physical therapy. No it didnโ€™t hurt. Because it was just an assessment. With a bunch of exercises for homework. I really like my person. Even though she tells me the muscles ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป on my left side, lower back are basically useless. I need to strengthen my core. Improving that should bring relief ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ€๐Ÿ’จ.

I cried because the dam finally broke. I had been holding in my emotions for so long. The ๐Ÿ’ฆ waterworks had no place to go but out. And you guys know. Youโ€™ve been along for the ride with me as I search for answers then come back here to release the hounds afterwards. And I only began the blog in 2016. I first started ๐Ÿ‘€ looking for a diagnosis all the way back in 2010. That is 12 long years.

Iโ€™m no closer to an answer. But I have a plan. And thatโ€™s what makes me feel better. Getting it all out of my system, then starting over. I will do those damn exercises every! single! day! Wish me luck ๐Ÿ€ something tells me Iโ€™m gonna need it.

As always more to come.

12 thoughts on “Thursday Thoughts ๐Ÿ’ญ ~ 7/21/22

  1. Yup, pressure valves, etc. Totally relateable. And it is a relief just knowing there are options, a plan if you will. It gives us the illusion of “control” ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. My Dad always said that tears are the pressure valve of the brain and as I have got older I really agree!
    Your physio is correct the more you can strengthen your core strength the better your back will be.
    Long story short, the second time I broke my back it was bad…over a month in hospital three operations all with 50/50 chance of me ending up in a wheelchair, I learned to walk again don’t get me started on prescription drug addiction condoned and abetted by medic. Then I started physio, Pilates and going to the gym… That was my saving grace…. Especially Pilates I can hold the position plank for 10minutes… Hell Jilly I can walk ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ don’t give up ever ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

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    1. Willow โค That's remarkable!! To come back from surgeries and be walking again is a testament to your will & strength. Bravo!!!

      I've said no to pain meds & they call drug adverse. What I really want is a proper diagnosis with meds to treat the actual illness. Then I will take the pills.

      I won't stop going either. I'm in the give it time to work phase. Heck, I have never been able to hold a plank period.


      1. I will look for some online videos. I’ve also heard therapeutic massage and cryo can help. The cold is supposed to reduce inflammation.


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