my anxiety is on high alert
the weather makes my jumpy
we survived snowmageddon
we surely should survive a little rain
but for some reason ….
my thoughts are
popping like old fashioned pop corn
in hot oil
Y’all, I’m writing to get out the heebie jeebies. Why? Oh Why? So many swirling thoughts.
My Gastro doc has ordered a CT scan with contrast which has been scheduled. If the test is negative, she is putting me on one of two meds, tricyclic antidepressants, that are no longer prescribed for that purpose though. These meds in very low doses help with nerve pain. Which is the likely culprit of my woes once the CT rules out anything else.
I make no secret that I am RX adverse. While I have been on a certain med for over a decade, I really do not like taking something without a firm diagnosis. I have already read the side effects of both potential meds. Elderly can have heart problems and everyone can have eye pressure issues. Not likely with low doses but still gets me going. My obsessive mind worries that I will die of a heart attack trying to get pain relief. Either that or go blind. Especially since I already have eye pressure/vision issues.
What I’d rather have happen in all silliness would be for TX to legalize a certain substance which in my mind is somehow “safer” because it is all “natural”. “Alright, alright, alright”. Hehe. If anyone gets my innuendo, drop me a comment. I’d love to hear your thoughts on the matter.
As always, more to come.