#SoCS ~ 2/20/21

Time once again for #SoCS where Linda, our host with the most writes and I re-write:

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “nerve.” Use it any way you’d like. Have fun!

To join in the shenanigans or to read the creative works of all the participants, here are the rules and ping back.

“Whoopee ti yi yo, git along little dogies”. I’ve got nerves that jingle, jangle, jingle. Look at me mixing up my traditional western folk songs. Before my time but when these songs were in your daddy’s era, you remember them fondly. Yippy yay I know I replaced spurs with nerves. I did that many years ago when I was trying to creatively write about some feelings I was having. Get it? Nerves that jingle, jangle, jingle. Caged butterflies flying that want to be free. I just realized I added ‘s’ to turn nerve into nerves. Why the nerve! How dare I?

Since I tend to be a whiner complainer Eeyore type, I may have told you already my woes of undiagnosed pain. Since 2010, I have searched for answers. Going to every doctor under the sun. To rule out. They know what I don’t have but no one has quite cracked the code on what I do have. Lulu-Belle says “Mom, you should try out to be on Mystery Diagnosis“.

Tests are inconclusive. I have a little of this and a little of that. But nothing that should cause the pain I sometimes feel. The closest to actual resolve had to do with my nerves. Lovely. She said dripping with sarcasm. Not much else they can do except send me to pain management. I have resisted that because I don’t want to be thrown on drugs to treat a “maybe”. I seek an affirmative diagnosis first. Then drug me up. Yeah buddy. I am not adverse to meds when necessary. I mean I have been on cholesterol meds since 2003 to successfully lower my hereditarily high cholesterol that did not respond to any other treatment.

Okie dokie. My stream is running slow and drying up. Much like our water did this week. Thank goodness the snow is gone and temps are rising. There is recovery going on all around this great state. What a historic moment. And with that I wish you all a wonderful #free48!

As always, more to come.

23 thoughts on “#SoCS ~ 2/20/21

  1. The search for answers is stressful in and of itself. I hate you’re in pain and they can’t pin down a source. I hope you find some relief soon. 💛

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  2. How frustrating not to know. I hear you about pain management. I’ve typed lots of reports about people who are on “pain management” and it just sounds like they get addicted to pain meds. Thinking good thoughts for you as always. Glad to hear your part of the state is coming around.

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    1. That was my worry as well Janet which is part of why I resisted pain management for so long. I appreciate the good thoughts. We got up to 64 degrees today. It’s time for celebration.

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  3. Good response to the prompt, Jill. Sorry about your pain. I was in agony for twenty years until I finally got a diagnosis. Ankylosing Spondylitis. Treated with infusions every six weeks. Gave me a new life.

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  4. First of all, I love the word, shenanigans and your creative writing on nerves that “jingle, jangle, jingle. Caged butterflies flying that want to be free.” I’ve experienced periods of mysterious nerve pain off and on, particularly in my coccyx, along with a couple of other mysterious pain areas which have been helped and almost eliminated by meditation and yoga (after repeated doctor visits that did not help except that . one doctor told me, “Your body would have an easier time healing if you weren’t so stressed.” which ultimately did help. ). I’ve got this worn out book, “Staying Well with Guided Imagery” and listen to youtube videos for pain and relaxation when I get flare ups. This didn’t work overnight, but I’ve discovered that stress makes my pain worse and when I relax, my body is better at figuring out how to heal. If you explore Pain Management options, ask your potential providers if they will help you with alternatives that could help you use less medication. I’m sending healing thoughts and prayers!

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    1. Thank you!!! This is excellent info. I wholeheartedly agree that stress impacts my pain. I started making a journal to get a handle on triggers. It started as a food journal and some things I eliminated and reduced for the better. The nerve stuff sadly continues intermittently.

      My employer has provided wellness/care options since the pandemic. One option was in the form a meditation series. It worked well and I go back to it often. For 2021, they’ve introduced a resiliency series. I’m enjoying that too. The mind is powerful. Not counting it out but including as combo therapy.

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      1. I’m so glad you have an employer that provides these options and that you’ve been able to eliminate and reduce some things for the better. Sounds like continuing progress.

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    1. Thanks so much for asking Jim! Things are back to normal for us with only a voluntary water boil through at least tomorrow. We kept heat, electricity, and Internet the whole time but had 3 1/2 days without running water. We had water though either bottled or in every receptacle we own thanks to kind hearted framily. Much worse in other parts of SA. Also north to Austin or east to Houston were harder hit. In looking back, we were one of the lucky ones with only minor inconvenience. Makes me extremely grateful.

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  5. Have you tried CBD? Marijuana? Those can both help immensely with nerve pain. If you don’t feel like you could manage during the day on either one, at least taken at night it would help you sleep, and give you relief for the night.

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    1. Not yet but that’s been recommended by coworkers. My neighbor down the street swears by CBD. I’ve researched but the options are overwhelming. I have no idea where to start.

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      1. I know, there are so many companies hopping on the bandwagon. I have tried Blue Moon Hemp CBD and it’s awesome! I vaped it though, but they also make tinctures if you don’t want to do that. Their flavors are delish too! Check them out and I know a couple of others too. All can be found online.

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