Heartbroken ~ 10/27/20

After six days on the job, Lulu got her walking papers. Thanks to our unreliable ISP. Or thanks to nothing. No one’s fault.

B seems to think he can save the day. Put in hard wired lines instead of wi-fi but they told her too late for that. At least they were kind. Her supervisor said she would keep Lulu in mind for when they bring people back into the office.

I want to rant at our ISP, tell them that they owe my daughter a job. Maybe then we’d get good service if she was work from home in one of their call centers? Yet I realize my bitching and moaning does no good. It is what it is. Sadly.

This job was all wrapped up in her self esteem. After all those rejections. Telling her it is not her fault does not make it better. Instead it is just more realization that she will have to pound the virtual pavement and find something else.

When one door closes … another one opens. If not a door, a window. Too soon 😦 Ya too soon 😦

That is all. Just had to get it out of my system.

As always, more to come.

Share Your World ~ 10/27/20

Melanie has some great questions on tap for us this week. If you’d like to join in, here are the rules and ping back. And awaaaayyy we go …

Questions:

What’s the tallest building you’ve been to the top of? I dislike heights and stay away from them as much as possible. As a kid, each summer, mom took us downtown for a day to play tourist on the River Walk. We’d go to the Hilton Hotel and ride the elevator to the top floor and look out across the city from the roof top pool. But I guess the tallest building would have been the one next door – the Tower of the Americas. A few times I stayed on the ground while everyone else went up without me. It was the 70s, guess mom thought it was safe to leave me there. Better than me having a melt down in the elevator.

What do you do to keep fit? I don’t keep fit. LOL. Well I sort of do, half way. I walk most mornings and try to watch what I eat. But at times I go off the wagon. Every day is a new chance to start over food-wise and make better choices. I always feel better when I do.

What’s your jack-o-lantern carved to look like? There are so many cute stencils these days. Lulu just carved her Pumpkin to look like the dog from “Nightmare Before Christmas”

Do you have hope or have you lost it? Depends on when you ask me. Now at this moment, I am decidedly neutral. Yet minute by minute I change my mind like some absurd hamster on a wonky wheel. Loop-de-loop. Hope, no hope, hope, no hope. I have written many posts calling the metaphorical Hope a fickle bitch. I have not done that in a while. Good for me. Maybe my mental health is improving.

GRATITUDE QUESTION:

Feel free to share something you’re grateful for!  Images and photos or poems, essays or free writing (stream of consciousness) pieces are all acceptable!  AND you don’t have to do this part, it’s always optional! My blessings are bountiful. I often wonder how I got so lucky. Taking nothing for granted. Today I am most grateful for B. With a look he brings me peace of mind which I have needed these last few weeks.