J-Dub’s log, star date March 22, 2020 about 3:55 pm CST. Yesterday and today I took time for self care. Selfishly I know considering there are degrees of this thing and us? Well, we are #blessedbeyondmeasure. Not sure how we lucked out but glad we did. And truth be told, I am feeling guilty. Like I should learn to drive a big rig. Or something. Don’t laugh. Okay laugh because that would be funny. “East bound and down loaded up and truckin we’re gonna do what they say can’t be done we’ve got a long way to go and a short time to get there …”
I slept in until 8:30 as part of my self care. Waffles were waiting for me and hot coffee. B takes good care of us. Not just because of shelter in place but because he is the head chef and I am the resident bottle washer. Thankfully this time together has not changed our dynamic.
I have heard from others that in no time at all, they are questioning things. Imagine being trapped with someone you come to realize you cannot stand? And on the other side, I have a dear friend who told me she has never been more painfully aware that she lives alone. Going to work was an outlet for her and now she is cut off as her firm is all working from home. I don’t understand completely what she does but she researches without much need to collaborate. We have facetimed more in the last three days than the entire time I have known her.
Last night I had a weird dream too but I remember it. A high school friend’s grand daughter was crying because her parents were fighting in another room. I was with her in the living room … just us but we could hear them screaming. I went to hug her but she bristled as I did. I was sure it was due to COVID-19. I stopped hugging her while saying calmly “we’ll all be okay” And she replied “We will! Do you know why? Because God will protect us”. Then I woke up.
As always, more to come.