No this is not a post about marriage. I am rambling and musing. With time on my hands I am sprucing up the place. For better or for worse that I do not know yet. But I am loving playing around with free themes!!!
That also means I have moved some “furniture” around. Virtual furniture is lightweight. I can move here there and yonder and back again all without breaking a sweat. I am the least techie tech type but I am not afraid to right click when in doubt. Sort of like taking a multiple choice test … “When in doubt Charlie out” Means select the c) answer. Ha! Fun times I tell ya.
This could be like me cutting my hair and no one notices. Because I keep the same style (or lack there of). Well that’s not exactly fair. My hairdresser since October of 2006 always gave me a cut to keep me contemporary. I have pictures to prove my evolution. She also gave me a cut that basically styled itself.
I missed some appointments lately because of LIFE. I also started to notice that my gray came back within days. I could not afford the time to color my roots weekly (even if I had the money which I don’t because I am the other F word … frugal) . Can’t fight city hall of the mane variety. Time for acceptance.
In my usual hindsight is 20/20 fashion, I wish I had never gotten on the color train. Or color boat. Or color whatever vehicle of your choice. Why? Well because now I am having a painful transition. That would not be the case if I had accepted myself all those years ago. If wishes were buts and or candy then beggars would ride. LOL. See how I mixed up an idiom and a proverb. Here are the real quips thank you Google you masterful search engine you.
“If ifs and buts were candies and nuts we’d all have a Merry Christmas”
“If wishes were horses, beggars would ride”
My therapist who I likely need to go back to again always told me not to waste a single minute on would’ve, could’ve, should’ve. But oh how I like to wallow there in the land of regrets. I don’t stay long anymore but I do go back to see my long lost friends. My coping mechanism of expect the worst and you will never be disappointed. Sort of similar huh? Or not.
Whew! this felt good. Better out than in as my old buddy Shrek is fond of saying. Wishing you a wonderful peaceful Sunday.
As always, more to come.
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