Left the family room for the kitchen to start dishes. After the briefest pause I hear.
Lulu: She’s been like that all day. About a level 10 or 10 plus. I’m worried about her.
B: Don’t worry about your mom. She’ll be okay.
Wow. I felt the frenzy but I also thought I was managing. Guess not. There is so much to do y’all. Slept good last night though. First time in a while. Vivid dreams too. Subconscious coming out of my system.
I attribute the small step to my mood change to my me day. Selfish but I need more days like that. I need to quit choosing busy over family. And I need to change how I base my worth and self esteem from what I do to who I am. At least I’m a little pitcher with big ears and overheard what I needed to overhear. I’m not happy with who I am becoming but at least there’s still time to change that.
In a side note, I’ve become engrossed in Far From the Tree. I need to check on when it was written. I see a few mental heath no-no’s like using the dreaded C word. Still finding nuggets of gold and my common place book is exploding.
Happy Sunday! I’m still searching for my driving song to participate on #SLS.
As always more to come.