If only
I had a second chance
I’d go back to 2014
Before the bottom fell out
Before medication numbed
But did nothing to cure her pain
Before the treatment
That was worse than the disease
Took hold and grew roots
The disease that is elusive and cunning
That you try to thwart
As it blows right past
You do the best you can
With what you know at the time
Your best is good enough
Why can’t I believe that?
Because maybe that’s the lie I tell myself
To get through another day
As always, more to come
J-Dub's Grin and Bear It 