National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Call 1-800-273-8255. Available 24 hours everyday.
The doctor (we will call him Dr. X) who admitted her was a joke. I swear he was high on something. Dilated pupils and the inability to sit still are tell-tale signs. He spoke rapid fire and only sort of made sense. All along we thought commitment was voluntary.
Dr. X: What would you like to do?
Me: Can we wait for my husband?
Dr. X: When will he be here? We really should move this along. Spaces are limited.
Me through tears: Lulu do you want to stay? Do you still want to hurt yourself?
Lulu: I don’t know. No, I don’t want to hurt myself. I am scared momma but I can be brave. I will stay. Maybe here I will get to finally see somebody who can help me?
I signed her into a 72 hour hold still thinking this was voluntary considering how everything was explained to me. The paperwork was a novel and I admit I did not retain most of it, the words floating through my brain, not sticking. I may have signed under duress but that changes nothing.
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How awful that the support you finally found was not helpful. I can imagine signing as well, through tears or pressing them back emotionally. You tried — you really did. You did what you could. Most of us would have done everything the same. There never is going to be a good choice at this point. Hugs.
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I’ll take those hugs 🤗 Took a while for me to believe that I did the best I could. I’ve always been a planner and when time is ticking there was no planning. In hindsight this had to happen to get us where we are now.