This post pulled over from FB was written five years ago today. June 5, 2012.
Lulu is AWESOME!!! Just got home and she says “go look in your closet, bedroom and bathroom cabinet” She had cleaned up/out all three places, spring cleaning at its’ finest. She did her own room too and tomorrow she tackles the office!!! All this without me even asking! LOVE our baby girl 🙂
It is only in hindsight that I look back and realize I missed the signs. The obsessive behavior. That has lead to other obsessive behavior. What 14 year old would clean without prompting? Now the guilt sets in. Would things be different if I knew then what I know now?
So many things I said and did made matters worse. Exactly like they say, your kids are watching and listening your every move. I was a huge influence on her. I never knew. If only, …
Then I tell myself enough! You did the best you could. Maybe things would have been even worse! The past is the past and all you can do is move forward. Wallowing in self pity truly serves no purpose. I’m not the sun or the moon, I can’t control the universe. Letting go no matter what may come is for the best. Now if only I believed that.
As always more to come.