02/28/2017 – J-Dub's Grin and Bear It

You forgot what happened?

Or is remembering only good stuff revisionist history?

The mind is very powerful when one stops to think about all our coping mechanisms. Me, I just forget. When I choose to remember, I often do so through rose colored glasses. Despite my sarcastic nature, I really am a glass half full kinda gal.

Today I’m on the way home having worked a 10 hour day. Billy Bob calls me in route and says “hey can you stop at Walmart and pick up some sevin dust”. He’s trying to get in the garden real quick and he realized there’s fire ants out there everywhere. So despite being dog tired and knowing Wally World will be packed, I say “sure I’ll go”

I park by the garden center. Quick entrance and exit. Thank goodness no line because it’s back in the back where no one dares to go. As I’m checking out, I hear Andy Grammer Keep Your Head Up.

Boom it hits me! A vivid image of Lulu and me … I’m driving her all the way out to Concordia on Loop 1604 hellway (and no I don’t mean highway. It’s hell. Trust me) We’re sitting at a red light on Huebner and I’m bawling like a two-year-old. And why? because Andy Grammer is singing this flipping song. Keep Your Head Up Damn you Andy you suave devil.

Pony had just lost his job. He wasn’t yet married. I was worried about my boy. How would he keep a roof over his head? Would he be alone forever? Was he crying and hurting and trying not to let us know? And his lyrics struck a chord:

“Bills on my mindset

I can’t deny they’re getting high

Higher than my income

Income’s breadcrumbs

I’ve been trying to survive”

Who knew that in no time his buddy M would help him get a “real” job at a fine financial institution. His career has taken off. He’s married to the fantastic Wise. Things are going well.

What amazes me is that I completely forgot about his rough patch. I only remember him as happy as he was before and as happy as he is now. This! This! Gives me hope for Lulu. This too shall pass has new meaning. And with God anything is possible. Yep, I went there. Let go and let God.

As always, more to come.