while cleaning yesterday, I uncovered one of my journals. Pre blog private thoughts. I have kept a journal my whole entire life … doing so was a coping mechanism … a way to deal with my innermost demons. I’ve got quite a few secrets that’s for sure. We all do. Does anybody ever really know anyone anyway?
No, no we don’t. Especially here in the virtual world where we can spin who we are into something more appealing. Even in “real” life we put our best foot forward taking care to hide any flaws.
My blog so far has been absolutely liberating and I’ve shared so much. Yet some secrets are left on written paper; I’m not willing to share them in the virtual world. Those few off limit topics are ones I guess I’ll take to my grave.
And it’s in the secrecy that I am struggling. Because I got such a therapeutic relief from sharing it’s almost as if I’m on a high craving that feeling again. I wonder am I brave enough to reveal who I really am?
As always, more to come.
J-Dub's Grin and Bear It 
I almost want to have a bonfire with the journal I just found 😂 so the believe NOTHING resonates with me. I’ve decided to be more purposeful to hit the sweet spot of 500 words or less. My problem is I usually don’t do drafts … I get an itch and scratch it with whatever random musing and rambling comes out.
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Agreed. There are journals that I told my husband, “If something ever happens to me and you read those… BELIEVE NOTHING.” hehe.
Although, I feel that blogging has allowed me to be more ‘me’… you are right, it’s only a version of me. You in blogland get to miss out on the awkward social moth that never can seem to get a word in edgewise with the uber-extroverted narcissist that always seems to frequent social gatherings.
And… It’s not that the medium itself is averse to revealing ‘all’… it’s that most people don’t want to hear ‘all’… they want 500 words or less, quick entertainment. I can’t blame them. lol. (Hey, I’m busy too…) There’s a balance with blogging, and looking for that balance is part of the challenge (and fun).
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