“The lady doth protest too much, methinks”

Billy-Bob and Lulu are having their last father – daughter day out … not literally the last … figuratively the last ;). ¬†In six days, she leaves for school. ¬†To celebrate that, they’ve taken off and left me alone which is okay because I too have plans for today … Ladies if I am misty when you see me,¬†you will understand why.

Such mixed emotions. ¬†Though in my heart of hearts, I know that this change in our lives is just the beginning and that we’ll see later … only in hindsight that “yea this change wasn’t so bad. ¬†In fact, everything was¬†more than okay on that day of August 19, 2016… dare I say that day/whole weekend and years the followed were fantastic”. ¬†That’s my prediction any way. ¬†We are¬†happy, sad, nervous, excited, and scared all at¬†once. ¬†So surreal that she is 18¬†because when I look at her, this is what I see. ¬†Pass the kleenex please.

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My twisted mind thinks “keeping crying, and I’ll give you something to cry about” ¬†An expression, that never once passed the lips of either of my parents. ¬†Any time I boo-hooed, no matter the reason, they listened and gave advice. ¬† I’ve been talking to them a lot these past few weeks. ¬†No I have not lost my mind, they are not answering me … not out loud any ways. ¬†Hoping to channel some of their inner strength on the BIG day. ¬†So I am done now and dry-eyed and of course I blame this rain for my tears anyway. ¬†Seasonal depression is a real thing y’all. ¬†Or maybe I just had something in my eye. ¬†Yea, that’s it, darn pollen.

As always … more to come.